Friday, October 7, 2011
When I learned of the writing prompt for BFF today, it was a no brain er as to my inspirations. I want to talk about how very precious life is. I am forty eight years young and still know without a doubt how every day in this life matters. Good bad or ugly, it does not matter to me as long as I know I do my best with what God gave me. I do wear the armour of God and it is helpful in every way to me every day.
I have a strong faith in God and that is my vehicle to try to be ever present in my life. I think it quite wise for all of us to be "in the moment". Life is fleeting. I just lost a good friend and neighbor recently. I am forever reminded that this life in the physical plane goes fast. I hope and pray that my life time here and my actions will serve me well in the heavenly plane. They say that the years in between our birth and death are what matters. I hope in many ways I am emulating goodness in my life. Most of us really do want to be the best we can be.
As I sit here and write this, I am very choked up. I have loved and lost many times, too many to say the least. I have no parents and have been an orphan since 1998. My father, one of my most treasured friends I had in this life, left this earth when I was pregnant with my daughter. I named her after him and so she is Gabrielle JoAnne. The Jo is for John, my fathers first name and Anne stands for his middle name, Anthony. I miss him so much at times it hurts physically. Her first name is for Angel Gabriel. Yes, I am a catholic. Ha
I have met Great people with great hearts and I have met those that I know actually are evil to the core. I have been blessed to say that my soul mate in heaven comes to me when things get difficult. I am sad to say that lately life has been tough because my ex is escalated and is now back to bullying me. Lets just say, I know he is monitoring my blog right now and I feel so very violated but compassion for his state of mind and for him. What I do know is that he is scared. One day at a time..............
I will pray for one day at a time and I pray you will all pray for my children's father, and my kids and I.
"Dear lord, please help xxx not feel like he has to be a bully to get what he wants. Please fill his heart with your love that only comes from you. Please heal his sad heart.