In the GBE2 Writing group, we were called to write about anything we wish, knowing that this is a season of hardship, woe or abundant love and perhaps a combination of all.
Following my heart, I knew just exactly what I wanted to write about.
My life is in major transition right now. Looking back at the last 6 months to a year, I can stand proud and know I learned an amazing life lesson. I listened to my lord and let go of what I once thought I needed and understood that in this life the only real thing to hang onto is Love. The rest is just stuff.
I stood up for my integrity and had to say goodbye in October to a career at a human service agency that was my life and passion for nine years. Suffice it to say, I knew leaving was the right option but at the same time, it was difficult to say good bye to all my amazing staff and volunteers that I had directed for several years. I was faced with a hostile work environment and knew the pain and suffering was not worth staying for. Perhaps I will write more in detail about this later, but for now I have to move forward and turn toward my many goals I have set for myself in 2013.
At the same time I dealt with this, I was also having to make tough decisions about whether or not I could save my home to foreclosure. Well, God in his infinite wisdom let the chips fall and showed me I needed to let go and proceed forward and let a short sale happen in January of 2013. That is where I am right now.
Dealing with this amount of hardship has proved worthy. I know that each time in life that I have had this hard pain, something interesting happens. Life gets easier because I have had to let go and live in my faith and just trust.
I am so grateful for this experience..... I am still in the thick of it since I am actively trying to find a place for my children and twin sister to live once the house sells. I have not felt happier in years. It is the simplicity that is being shown to me so brightly. I liken it to the light house as the beacon letting me know that this world is not all there is and what is important is the relationships we have nurtured.
I have not sat back at all since being unemployed. My last day of work was the end of October. I have been involved in a employment program working with recruiters. I am taking full advantage of all the workshops and training classes. I have brushed up on all my computer skills and done: Word, Windows, Keyboarding, Excel and other training at job fairs.
I know that life has not been easy, but the grip the Holy Spirit has had on me has been a gift. I say "Thank you God for all you have given me. I am grateful."