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Friday, August 5, 2011

Instinct

In one of my online writing groups GBE2, we were asked to write about instinct. One experience immediately  entered my mind. Please sit back and know that this story is one you may want to share with your children if they are going off to college.

In the 1980's,  I was attending the University of Wisconsin- Stout studying psychology. I was surrounded by so many good friends, getting good grades and living with my best friend and twin sister, Linda. One particular Friday night, I was going out with a group of gals to hear one of my favorite bands.  Linda couldn't  join us since she had plans to see a movie with her boy friend Joel.  My good friend Patty had some friends I hadn't met, but I was going to hang out with them at a tavern called the Marion.  We were excited to hear one of the most popular musical bands of the time.

I'll never forget how much I enjoyed listening to the live music of Night Ranger. Patty and I were in heaven as we swayed back and forth to the great tunes. Could it get any better?  " Sister Christian", our favorite song was sung and the crowd went wild.  This was such a great night. I had been introduced to all of Patty's buddies and they seemed really nice.

The band had ended and I was ready to go home. It was a busy week of tests and I had to rise early the next morning to meet up with a study group.  Patty and I had made plans that she would drive me home after the last song played.   She leaned over to me and whispered " Sorry Laura, I want to stay till bar time and head home with my boyfriend."  I asked her if she could just drop me off first like we had planned and unfortunately she answered "NO."

Patty must have felt guilty for leaving me in the lurch and found someone to take me home. Her friend's buddy Leo, said he was ready to get going too and had no problem dropping me off.   He seemed nice enough, but I had only just met him.  Instinct told me I really shouldn't go with him, but I shrugged it off.

Leo and I walked out into the dark Wisconsin night and jumped into his black Chevy truck. It was a beautiful September night and the stars were shining bright as if they were there to watch me.  I gave Leo directions to my off campus apartment.  Confused, I asked him why he was going in the opposite direction.  "Oh, I just want to take you back to my apartment for a night cap."  "As great as that sounds, I really do have to get home. " Like I said, I meet with a study group early in the morning and I am really tired."

I was starting to feel panic creep in as he ignored my requests to bring me home.  He continued to drive in the direction of his house. His entire demeanor changed as did his voice.  In a stern tone he said,  "Quit  being such a party pooper and come in for a few minutes."  I felt angry and scared and couldn't believe he was trying to make me feel guilty. This felt surreal, this predicament I was in.  I just wanted to be home safely tucked under my covers.

 My mind was reeling in fear as we walked into his house. I knew what I had to do to get me out of this situation somewhat unscathed.  Leo asked me if I wanted a drink. "No thanks, I'm tired and just want to go home to bed.  He began spewing demeaning, offensive and disgusting words, I was terrified.  He pushed me down on his brown haggard sofa. Leo was a college football player and  built like a brick shit house.  I knew  I couldn't compete with him physically, but maybe I could on a psychological level. He threw his large body on top of me and forced his tongue into my mouth. I remember him putting his hands all over my breasts.  I knew I was in trouble. "I don't even know you, what are you doing?"  I could feel his anger rise by the way he was talking and holding me down. His eyes seemed to disappear under the angry scowl on his face.  I knew I had to use every piece of Psychology I had learned.  I just wanted to be home in my cozy apartment with my twin.  How I wish I could just fly away and be there.

 I was feeling hopeful and more confident as instinct just took over. I felt a rush of energy course through my body and was ready to put on the best acting performance of my life.  This moment seemed to last a lifetime. Before I could do anything he thrust his large penis into my mouth and told me if I didn't perform fellatio, I would be sorry.  I felt so afraid, so disgusted, so angry.   After finishing this repulsive chore, I went into "acting mode."  Calmly, I gave Leo one of my best smiles and said, "I'll take that drink now."  I cheerfully asked him to mix me a  Bacardi diet.   "Laura, I am so glad you want to stay longer."  My body was shivering uncontrollably as he left to the kitchen to pour me that drink.

As he was mixing my cocktail in the kitchen, I made a run for it.  I was running so fast, I tripped over my own feet in a panic. " I have to make it to the pay phone outside of the Student Union to call Linda".  I made it to the phone and called Linda in hysterics. In between my sobbing and screaming, I was able to ask Linda for help.  My twin sister Linda has always been my rock and she told me to try to stay calm.   "Laura, stay put and hide till I get there.  I'll  honk three times so you know It's  me and safe to run to the car."  Trying to talk in between my shrills, I promised her I would.  "Please hurry Linda, I see head lights coming toward me."  It felt like an eternity. I felt so vulnerable and drained emotionally.  My body was shaking uncontrollably and I could hardly breathe.

I hid behind a large thick bush and prayed to God this monster wouldn't find me.  I finally heard  three honks. I ran out to the car and just  fell weeping into my sisters' loving arms.

That Night I learned a great lesson.  Always trust your instincts.

24 comments:

  1. I remember reading this--you have very keen instincts and I'm glad that you followed them. Your situation was very scary and very horrible--but you were able to think on your feet and figure out how to escape. Thank God for that. Thanks for sharing--you don't know who might read this that will benefit from this if ever found in a similar situation. Cheers, Jenn

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  2. Bless your heart! What a horror for you and thank God it wasn't even worse. Instincts need to be trusted, for sure.
    Difficult story to read, but I am sure very therapeutic to write. (((hugs)))

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  3. Wow. Just wow. Thank God for your good instincts.

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  4. Oh my God, this is horrible, so sorry you had to go throught such a horrid traumatic experience!

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  5. That's why my more petite friends like having me around: if I had been with you I probably would have kicked him in the nuts to begin with!


    gbe: instinct (kate escape)

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  6. Thanks for sharing. I work on a college campus. My office conducts a Safety workshop each semester. I wish more students would attend it.

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  7. Frizzy Hooker
    It is so sad more students don't come to the workshop.

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  8. Claudia
    Thanks so much. looking back I wish now I had called the cops. So naive.

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  9. Kate
    You have me laughing. I wish I would have had you there. I would have liked seeing that.

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  10. Word Nerd,
    Thanks for the comments. Good choice of word too.

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  11. Jo,

    Thanks. Yes, difficult but hopefully will help someone. Hugggs back

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  12. Jenn,
    Thanks for thinking I thought on my feet. I know it could have been much worse, but dang it, I wish he did not get any of me....

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  13. Thanks for sharing this, Laura. I had more or less the same experience myself. But that time, I was so scared I cried so hard that the guy actually mellowed down and took me home. My, I haven't spoken about this in years! Your article is just very "therapeutic." You're so brave!

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  14. How completely horrible and scary. I had a similar experience that ended in full blown rape. I got away, and I am glad you did too. Instincts should always be followed. That time, I didn't follow mine and I was raped plain and simple. It was an awful experience, as yours was, but I came out a lot smarter and a lot less trusting after it. Good post.

    Kathy
    http://www.thetruckerswife.com/

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  15. What an asshole that prick was!! I hope he was eventually arrested at some point because he doesn't deserve to be walking the streets. You should have bit his "weapon" off!!

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  16. Thank you for sharing your story. You were very brave. You're right...we need to share this with our children before they go off into the world. I wish all the schools would teach a class about this. It is so important.

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  17. todaysworkingwoman,
    I am touched you think it brave for me to write this. I feel like in my writing I can do something to help others stay out our harms way. Hopefully people read this and learn to always stay with your group no matter what.

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  18. SJerZGirl
    Thanks for your support. In hindsight I know that my biggest mistake was not reporting him. I hope he got what he deserved.

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  19. Reiza,
    I am so sorry you had to go through this too. I am glad he mellowed and took you home. I think we all need to stick together and tell the truth so that these monsters have to take accountability. I know I have learned a lot from this and know how important it is for us to tell our children about predators.

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  20. Kathy,
    I am so sad you had to go through that. I think we both learned a lot and learned not to trust everyone. It is too bad, one bad apple can spoil the whole batch.

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  21. Pretty scary stuff!! You handled it so well though--good for you!

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  22. I am so sorry you had to go through this, Laura. I'm afraid that there are a lot more young women out there going through things like this in silence. Whether out of fear or shame, they don't speak up. There really does need to be a class for young women while still in high school. I think so many of them are just way too trusting.

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  23. How devastating for you, Laura. It's every girl's worst nightmare. You're amazing how you kept your wits about you during such a horrible experience. Glad you escaped okay. So brave of you to share it with us now as a reminder to trust our instincts.

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  24. I am so sorry that you had to go through that, I can only imagine how terrified you must have been! I'm glad you had good instincts and that you followed them and ultimately got out of there safe. You really are brave to share your story...but I know it will help someone, it will make someone remember to listen to that "voice" in their head/heart. Thank you for sharing.

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